Learning How to Love

Four months into parenthood, and I feel like a different person. Not only have I gone through immense physical changes over the past year – going from pregnant to childbirth to maintaining a child on the outside – there has been amazing emotional growth. I’m incredibly thankful for the chance to go deeper and learn […]

After 2 months – Kintsugi

Kintsugi is the art of repairing ceramics by illuminating the flaws with gold resin. This makes the piece more beautiful and valuable, the history being celebrated instead of tossed to the side. Ten days ago, I woke up at around 2:30 in the morning with a rock solid right breast that felt like someone had […]

Surviving The First Month

This post is about dealing with a newborn. While my experience is from a heteronormative viewpoint, I think some of the advice could help families of all backgrounds. Always consult your healthcare provider before making any medical decisions. If you are dealing with depression and/or anxiety, please talk to your healthcare provider. Trigger warning for […]

Pant-hood

This blog post is about certain demographics of guardians/parents. I understand that parenthood comes in a multitude of shapes and sizes. This is also coming from the perspective of a white, cisgendered, heterosexual woman who primarily socializes with other white, cisgendered, heterosexual people. A lot of these situations may not apply to every demographic. I […]

Public Moments

I’m writing with the understanding that it’s being said in a public space. Trigger warning: Discussions of child abuse. My friend recently wrote a blog post about why an over abundance of the presences of small children on social media makes him uncomfortable. The main point being that the Internet isn’t private. It’s public and […]

Bees

Shufs left last Friday to visit our baby nephew in Boston. He’s had a handful of heart problems that, while persistent, have not diminished his spirit or adorableness. Little Nephew is stalwart and stubborn. Sedatives and pain meds go right through him and he coughed up his respirator after decided he didn’t need it anymore. […]

This is a dark one

This week has been a surprisingly difficult one. While last week was filled with successes, this one seems to be littered with missteps and fuck-ups. The aggravating part is that a lot of the stress is self-perpetuating(isn’t it always?) and it’s becoming a cycle that I can’t pull myself from. In therapy, I’ve been vacillating […]

Waves

Lots of happenings, well, happening. Sometimes it comes in waves, amirite? First, my dad got pneumonia. This is sort of an issue because he’s had major stomach surgery last winter and is still dealing with healing from that. My dad gets aneurysms that need to be operated on before they burst and this has, from […]