Four months into parenthood, and I feel like a different person. Not only have I gone through immense physical changes over the past year – going from pregnant to childbirth to maintaining a child on the outside – there has been amazing emotional growth. I’m incredibly thankful for the chance to go deeper and learn […]
Kintsugi is the art of repairing ceramics by illuminating the flaws with gold resin. This makes the piece more beautiful and valuable, the history being celebrated instead of tossed to the side. Ten days ago, I woke up at around 2:30 in the morning with a rock solid right breast that felt like someone had […]
This post is about dealing with a newborn. While my experience is from a heteronormative viewpoint, I think some of the advice could help families of all backgrounds. Always consult your healthcare provider before making any medical decisions. If you are dealing with depression and/or anxiety, please talk to your healthcare provider. Trigger warning for […]
Today, I made the decision to take a Facebook sabbatical. Not all social media, just FB. I have friends who live in other areas that I still want to have some contact with and the internet is, right now, the best way to do that. Facebook has long been the refuge of psuedo-news and half-hearted […]
A sometimes life. Open up the bleeding door and the night reeks of buttery sweet flowers. Tongue heavy with the slick choke of fingers shoved down the throat. Bite off at the knuckles to breathe again.
Now that spring is full on flirting with us, I’ve been getting outside a lot more. Starting a tiny but manageable beginner’s garden. That really means a few pots with some herbs and morning glories, but whatevs. Right now, I’m on the front porch drinking coffee and listening to the crazy rock doves coo their […]
This week has been a surprisingly difficult one. While last week was filled with successes, this one seems to be littered with missteps and fuck-ups. The aggravating part is that a lot of the stress is self-perpetuating(isn’t it always?) and it’s becoming a cycle that I can’t pull myself from. In therapy, I’ve been vacillating […]
Once again, it’s been a while. I’m not a big posting every day blog person. My day to day life is pretty mundane. That being said, there have been some changes that I’ve been hesitant to post about because as soon as I start discussing something, it stops being effective. In preparation for a busy […]
Needing to extra label my “maraca of narcota” to keep track of which days I’m actually taking pills from, and if I actually took the pills.
I was a freshman in high school when I was put on my first antidepressant. It was Prozac. I’m not sure if it worked or not. Being a teenager means days filled with extreme highs and lows. The way I went about my life was to keep going until I burnt out or fucked up/failed. […]